Do you want to build a snow man reprise. Lyrics by phananigans:
I have been wanting to cover this and now I finally did! I just loved his lyrics they were so touching and yeah, I hope I don’t dissapoint!My voice isn’t the best but.. I really do wish they would have put this in the movie! :(
I was going through my stuff and found some things that led me to the path of reminiscing the past- Specifically, the high school years. I found the Autograph book and the “testimonial” notebook I made my classmates sign before we graduate. I realized some things:
- We were so jeje yes, I went through that phase when I was in high school no matter how I detest “jejemons” nowadays. all my k’s are replaced by q’s, My sh’s replaced by x’s. It’s humiliating. I almost burned these notebooks immediately after reading the first few pages.
- I was too generous :o almost all testimonials that they wrote about me was about me helping them in math assignments and seatworks and how I was the only one who had 96 as grade in Math and 95 in Math Elective and shit. Was I really that gullible that I let my classmates copy my answers? ugh. and these lead me to the next realization.
- Almost all of them were users. I admit. I was pathetic. Giving everyone answers was my only way to feel close to them and belong which, I now realize, is a really shallow thing. Why? Because after high school, there will be no chance that you will pass as easily in college. This closeness you will feel with those who used to copy your assignments and seatworks? it will not mean anything when you look back three or four years from when you graduated. It will only make you realize how shallow you were in high school. I feel like crap. seriously.
There are some things in life that you think means everything. There is a stage when you think that you are mature enough to understand what is mature and what is not. That is high school.But when you try to look back, you will realize how childish you were in high school- joining a little “family” wherein you will feel like you belong but actually you’re not, whining about how your high school crush never noticed you, forming a friendship with the popular ones through giving them your homework, thinking that they will hangout with you more if you do so, bonding with your classmates over how this teacher is this and that and the other one is this and that. These are all childish stuff. You will realize, as you grow, how shallow you were in high school and you can’t help but hope you can change how you acted.
There are more to this realizations but I can’t express them all. I was typing too slow and the ideas came pouring out of my head before I can catch them. Yes, I got these just by scanning through my high school stuff. I felt crap and I wanted to vent it all out. I know I can’t post it on facebook (I am friends with all of them-the high school people) and of course, not on twitter because I had to limit what I write. So here I am in Tumblr. This will be one of the few personal posts that I will be seeing in my tumblr account. Who knows, maybe one day, when I get a little bit older, I might actually find this post a little childish. I believe that finding maturity is infinite. (this is the result of having 3 or 4 philo electives this college. boo you CRS.)
Bottom line is that I feel like most of high school had been a series of fake events wherein the only ones that I want to keep are those that felt real.